...and so is my head!
I just typed this post and the computer officially crashed, thankfully blogger saved this. The problem is I'm now attempting to finish and edit this on my iPod, and I can't get to the bottom of the post. I think it's considerably scattered and might end right in the middle of a sentence. I guess it really is a good representation of my muddled brain and our dysfunctional computer situation.
Our computer is doing some crazy things. I think it's a ticking time bomb. Just before our cruise, crazy spyware stuff kept popping up. Miraculously, when we got home it was working just fine. I think it was happy to have had a rest. Now it's back in full force and doing all kinds of kooky things. I came home this evening after a very very long week and was heading for a hot bubble bath. After needing to print one quick (well, if you call 25 minutes of fighting with the computer quick) thing for my religious ed class tomorrow, I somehow got this crazy idea to blog about the dumb computer and thus spend more time getting completely irritated by it. The reason, I think, is that the computer is reminding me of my brain. They both seem to be in overload mode. Since my blog is the best way I know to unload my brain (I wish I had a pensive like Dumbledore) it forces me to spend more time on the computer and then my head hurts even more having to deal with it. Do you see the irony here?
Anyway, you know the saying about when you have kids your heart walks around in another body? Well, obviously after 15 years I'm fairly used to that. The thing is the majority of these last 15 years the other hearts have been walking around in fairly close proximity to mine. They still are really, but this adult theatre (that phrase always sounds so wrong to me) experience is a new dynamic for our family. Jake and Jonathan have been out most nights until after 11, actually I think it's been every night since we got back from the cruise. They are involved in something pretty large that has almost nothing to do with me. It's strange. Last night was opening night (which I didn't attend...more on that in a sec) and afterwards there was a reception at the coffeehouse nextdoor to the theatre. Jake and Jonathan were walking around and everyone there was talking to them, and taking pictures with them, and hugging them, etc. Jake was even fairly gracious to them. My kids are growing up! The night before last was "friends and family night", it was actually a dress rehersal open to the public. {It was a great show, I highly recommend it and tickets are selling out fast} I have been to EVERY SINGLE childrens' theatre performance my kids have been in. Not just every show, every performance of EVERY SHOW! This is different, this is mainstage theatre. This show is going to run about 20 times. I don't "work for" the adult theatre (althought we will be ushering a few times). The show is going on right now and I'm not there. We weren't at opening night (Madi was). Last night waiting for the show to end a man who knew we had two kids in it came up to us saying, "you do plan to see your kids in this show don't you?" I had a really hard time with his tone and implication. I asked Mike if it bothered him, and it didn't. "Who is that guys anyway?" Mike asked. "I don't know," I said. "So why would it bother you?" was Mike's reply. Because I'm the mom! Because I am the homeschooling, over-involved mom! Because my "hearts" are a part of something that I am really not a part of. All of this is good and healthy and natural and normal and overwhelming. We've been doing such an all encompassing job of giving them roots, it's a little strange to wake up and realize they are starting to use their wings too. It's not like
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Yup, it ended in the middle of a sentence, I was just going to say it's not like they're moving out anytime soon and for that I am eternally grateful!
We are just trying to get our computer to limp along until we get the income tax money!!! Just remember what a great experience Jonathan and Jake are having (and that they're doing it together is awesome! seriously how many 15 yo boys want to hang out with their 8 yo brother?) You have done an amazing job raising them and the fact that they can be out there and be gracious ad kind is a wonderful testament to that!
I was thinking of you and the boys Saturday when Bobby and I were in Olivia's around 6:30. Was there a show Saturday evening? The sign said there wasn't, but I saw a lot of people coming and going.
Terri, there was a performance Sat at 8. All month it's Thur, Fri, Sat at 8, Sun at 2. There's also at least one Wed night show and one Sat matinee in addition to the night one.
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