Thursday, November 5, 2009

My brain...

I often blog to "empty my brain". I tend to live in a constant state of "my head is about to explode", and I may just have figured out why. I'm fairly confident that most of my readers feel the same way, so I'll share my observations with you. There really is too much in there! Not too much like "I am SO SMART", but just too much to think about too much of the time. For example in a five minute period this afternoon, I got baby X (who I babysit 2 days a week...he's really not a baby he's almost 2) up from his nap, buckled him into my car, ran around like a madwoman looking for my keys, heard my vibrating phone (which was left on vibrate from something yesterday, I don't remember what--well I do remember two times I put it on vibrate yesterday the field trip and a meeting at church), answered it and talked to Mike, while at the same time finding my keys and driving to pick up the kids from PE (it is only 2 minutes away), then while still talking to Mike I had my three kids talking to me at once, while I was attempting to go say thank you to the friend who brought Jake to a play this morning. And then I remembered to give said friend a little birthday present we'd gotten for her son, who we had cupcakes for on Halloween...I had forgotten the present the last few times we'd seen them. Somewhere in the middle of this I told Mike I'd call him back and had some momentary confusion about if I'd actually have enough room to bring home all of the kids I was supposed to bring home (even though I've had baby X, my three, and three G kids before, I somehow forgot how to count and was unsure if everyone would fit). They fit safely and we were on our way...now with 6 kids and a toddler all talking at once. Keep in mind this was only FIVE MINUTES of my day!! I am seriously over-stimulated! This is just a tiny cross-section of what my days look like, and the thing is, it isn't everyone talking at the same time that does me in, it is the constant talk in my own head...AT THE SAME TIME! (Oh I wish I would've said that, Oh I can't forget to do this, I need to call so and so, I need to make this appointment, this floor is a mess, Jake needs to learn to be nice to people, There once was a girl bird named Gertrude McFuzz,........) Add to all this that I have a really good memory, like when someone recently put a picture on facebook of my 5th grade birthday party (I wasn't actually in the picture), and I could tell you everything about that day, what I wore, the weather, the songs that remind me of that party, who was there, etc...etc... There's a lot of completely unuseful extraneous information floating around in my head. Add to THAT, that I am trying to learn everything right along with my kids which this year means two different Science programs, two different math programs (well three, but at least I'm not having trouble with Jake's yet) and much more. Even as I type this I'm thinking that it is making no sense and yet, I want to try to wrap it up because dinner is out of the oven and I'm hungry. I've begun using a planner to try to get some of this craziness out of my head, but I've already had some problems with that...like writing things down correctly, but remembering them wrong. I guess I'm going to end this post without coming to any kind of solid conclusion. In the meantime if you see me looking glassy-eyed just remember I'm trying to tune out myself first and then I can focus on what everyone else is saying. And it goes without saying that I'll have an easier time telling you the birthdates of friends of mine from elementary school than I will rememembering to tell everyone about the little boy sleepover for Jake's party tomorrow.

6 comments:

DebiH. said...

Remind me to show you my "keeping it all together" paper.
:) it helps the brain overload.

Randi Sue said...

Identifying the problem is half the battle.

Melissa said...

This post is hilarious!!! I have to say ditto - you may as well have been writing this about me.

crispy said...

Talk about stimulation overload. Whew. =)

Cindy said...

I've often wondered how you do what you do! I can definitely identify with most of it especially the memory stuff-I don't think people believe me sometimes with how much I REALLY remember!

Tiffany said...

I am so with you...I want to escape from my own brain sometimes!!! That's why I read so much and do puzzles--it clears my mind.